it says its been 50 weeks since ive written in this thing. wowieeeee. but the only reason im writing in it now is because i feel i have no one to talk to. im am so seriously depressed. like i havent felt this way since sophmore or junior year of highschool. whatever year it was when i was on antidepressants. ive cried myself to sleep every night ( Read more... )

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IM GOING CAMPING MOTHER FUCKERS!!!!

YEAHHHHH im gonna get wasted and have sooo much fun and your not!!!! this weekend is going to kick ass even though i am working. but its all works out. tonight: getting drunk with markus. tommorow: work 5-9 then CAMPING with pats cousin tom and pat and sue and HOTT andy and HOTT bennet. among others. yeah well ( Read more... )

im a blonde now. like totally. i wish i had a camera so i could put up some pictures.

i wouldnt go too far as to say i am happy. but its getting there. most of the bullshit is over with now and people have found some new thing to talk about. thank God i am not the subject of peoples conversations anymore. and i am single now and i dont care. im not sad. it really hasnt changed anything. im going to the shore tommorow for the first ( Read more... )

from now on everything i write in here will be friends only or private. that is if i ever decide to write in here again ( Read more... )