dude, i'm just flat out depressed now. this is gay. i have a feeling he doesn't care very much anymore. kinda starting to realize how nice it is to not have anyone to worry about? but who knows? i just hope that's not the case. i'm scared though. where do i go from here? communication is the key to a relationship. . .and we're not communicating. ( Read more... )

you know what....not being able to talk just plain, flippin sucks. =|

how come I can never sleep? i think it's funny that i've had this journal since march....and i've only written in it about..uhm...20 times maybe? haha meh...not everyone is good at keeping up w/ these online journal things right? haha i do like writing in it though. so anyways ( Read more... )

Like I said, I wanna be able to look back on that entry a week from now and laugh. I still can't really laugh about it, because most of it is still true. But I have gotten to talk to Shaun, and that helped A LOT. I guess I just get weird...because I was starting to feel detached, or kinda like we were becoming strangers? i don't really know how to ( Read more... )

nothing feels right at the moment. i'm hoping that all changes soon. i don't like not feeling right. i don't know what to do about it either. i guess i'm not good at handling this kinda thing? i don't even know what kinda thing it is really, i just know that i feel all alone. and i feel like it's going to take me a while to figure things out. i'm ( Read more... )

well wow! i haven't written in about, a month and a half. heh ok, well....school is goig ok actually. easy classes pretty much. well, excpet for STUPID trig. bleh....i hate that class. tell me again...why do i want to be an engineer? hmm....what a dummie. anyways...yah, it's been a while. i'm pretty sure a good bit has happened, but i don't feel ( Read more... )

well, first day was alright. i like all except for one of my teachers! uhm. . .i get to OA for mrs. conners, the senior secretary, so that's cool. she's soo awesome. such a happy person. i love her. =) mrs. gilberts, my AP Lit teacher is pretty awesome too. she's funny. so that class should be fun. yearbook is gonna be pretty great too. the ( Read more... )

ugh. i can't believe school is gonna start in 2 days?!?! seriously! my summer went by wayyy too fast. =( i wish it were gonna be a little longer, but i guess things will be ok. life goes on. i can't believe i'm already a senior either. it's kinda scary, but really exciting. i was just talking to my mom about that today when we were going to the ( Read more... )

>haha....ok, so, it's been 'summer' for about 2 weeks now. it's great, but why am i working so much?? lol psh. . .work sucks. haha oh well. uhm. . . .so yah, it's already June 9th right? agh. . .10 days until Erin's birthday. :) the bg 16 for her. heh and one month until Alaska! yay! i'm so excited to go back up there. agh. . .i don't think ( Read more... )

WOW! Dashboard was so freakin awesome?!?! seriously! I love them more now than i even used to. haha I can't believe how good they were. I think they were even better live than they are on their albums. Like, most people kinda suck live, so you're dissappointed, but they were the exact oposite of dissappointing! seriously!:) Uhm, my birthday was ( Read more... )