i'm sick to my stomach thinking that shaun has found someone else....the fact that he could have lost interest in me that quick? and if it's someone online, omg....i might throw up, seriously. how weird is that. to leave ME, a girl he met on DC, for another girl that he met on the computer. . . .what's the point of that? if you "don't have time" ( Read more... )

Well, I got my "closure", so I think i can move on now. I just didn't know what was actually going on, so I really needed that. I'm still hurt, and slightly confused, and of course i'm depressed, but i think i can actually make it through this now. It's going to be the hardest thing i've ever done, and i really wish i didn't have to, but i can't ( Read more... )

i never saw this coming. but it really is over. and i'm not turining back. i already gave away enough of my life to him....i can't lose any more of it, or there will be nothing left. =( i just wish it wasn't so hard. love sucks. now i know why all those people who got their heart broken hate love. it really does suck. but then again, so do stupid ( Read more... )

it's hard to write when your eyes are filled with tears ( Read more... )

i never thought it would hurt so much. i almost feel like dying. my world is so shaken, i can't seem to get back up. now i really do know what a broken heart feels like. but i don't want it. i just want someone to help me fix it, fast. i can't handle this heartache for long. i'll break down. completely. but i already know it's going to be a long ( Read more... )

I just over-reacted. i was really tired, and i wasn't thinking straight, and i jump to conclusions when i don't know what else to do, so i was just being retarted. it's really not that bad. things aren't what i thought they were. but yah....i shouldn't have been such a retard last night.

i think my heart was just ripped out through my throat. no one's here to explain, so i'm left to draw conclusions. i don't know what it means, or if it's even true, but if it is. . . .you have a lot of explaining to do. how could you do this to me? i've been thinking through everything all day, trying to figure out a way to reassure you that ( Read more... )

i only wish there was something i could do.

oh well....things just go bad sometimes. no more lizandshaun....at least for a while i guess. we'll see how that turns out? =|

I guess I should give him a little more credit. . . .something must have come up, because I don't believe he would just leave me out in the cold like that. Well, I don't want to believe that anyways. I just hope everything is ok. I'm actually starting to get kinda worried. This isn't like Shaun....he almost always at least calls me or leaves me a ( Read more... )