ok.. so there are like 33 days till i leave and I feel like I am not nearly physically ready for BMT. I am scared to death. I am all worried I am goign to overtrain my body so I like purposely dont work out more than once a day= which is so stupid because I have played soccer for my whole life and I used to do double- triple sessions in college, ( Read more... )

GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just want to fucking scream. Ok so I freaking dont ever ever want to get married now. Why the fuck should I? I am already doomed for disaster. I have not one good example of a healthy marraige in my life. My stepmom is a bitch and my stepdad is a complete asshole. My mom wont saY anything to my step dad and my dad ( Read more... )

alrightee....so I decided to keep a live journal so my friends and family could join me on my journey to a new life, new start and the exciting and not so exciting things that happen and will be happening in my life. First off lemme tell you why my life is going to change so much. I just joined to United States Air Force and I leave June 24th. Yep ( Read more... )