i think this time ive had it. i dont remember feeling this lonely even when i was single. im so scared and there is noone. no boyfriend no bestfriend no family that understands just me here and i dont know what to tell me anymore. ive giving a lending ear ive givin all the advice ive had when needed and im not saying that i regret that i just wish ( Read more... )

i really hope this doesnt mean what i think it means ( Read more... )

well i just read chris to the tinas journal and i cried i miss you sooooo much if only you knew ( Read more... )

To my Army Soldier ( Read more... )

its been quite a while. then again i guess it always is. christina still love ya girlie. miss you much ( Read more... )

shit is how it always is....shit. HI CHRISTINA I LOVE YOU TRIED CALLING YOU HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!! back to the shit....tony came back and once again there i was thinking he was all grown up...HA!!! i was so wrong. so i give he wins im gone, my mom thinks i need to start dating again...i got a few people in mind but eh...just the thought of dating makes ( Read more... )

its me its got to be me. what am i doing? what the hell is wrong with me? i just need to give up i just need to let go i need to just be me and give up on guys all together....im such an idiot...i fall for it all the time...

im sitting here drinking some hot coffee with cocoa in it. today pretty much sucked big hairy balls but yesterday was pretty fanfuckingtastic. i want to the southwest hair show and i got to model for Paul Mitchell. they textured my hair and re-colored my hair with blue because mine was turning green already. it was so much fun being on stage in ( Read more... )

todayhad to be the worst day in a whole long time...im so tired and i want to sleep soo bad. i had 4 clients today 2 full sets of nails (neither were happy about them even though they were perfect), a manicure, and a color retouch. none of which i got a tip for its been that way all week pretty much. so i get home today after that and i love my ( Read more... )

wow been a while. been busy with school. we have better internet now so maybe i can update without getting kicked off in mid-sentence. things are so crazy lately i barely have time to breath. ive been spending more and more time with my family too. its so cool because i dont ever get to see them they live in El Mirage. they are so much fun though. ( Read more... )