i cant help but  think
every girl he looks at
or wants to be with
mostly the girl he is with
is prettier than me
and i always will.

i want him to be so so so happy.
i thought i let go so long ago.
i think i have.
my mind still wonder

 I can feel the lump on my throat,
and the tingling in my body
it's something like anger
and its something like sadness
and it's just a full out freak out.

when i get like this, 
there is nothing to do
i feel liek screaming
or crying, or walking
or dancing, or anything
but none of it works.

i just.. dont.. want this anymore.

i want to inspire people
i want to help people realise their dreams and go for it
i want to change peoples lives

i just dont know how to do that.

 i don't know how to hide my feelings when i talk to you.
so i don't talk to you, i wish you'd come and talk to me.

you go first this time.

i can tell  that this trip is going to change my life
i can tell that when i get into that country
i can tell that my relationship with god will be so huge

and i'm so excited for it.
less than a week i will be in bosnia
and in less than a week, maybe all will be different

i can feel my heart pound throughout my whole body
i can feel it in my toes,
my legs, my stomach, my chest, my head, my ears, my mouth.
slow but so so so strong
so so evident
my heart doesn't hide itself from me,
i dont hide my heart to others

the thing is i see through it all,

...
...
...
I like lots of thing, and i dislike lots of thing.
but the things i like are better to mention.
the things i dislike don't matter very much.
so this is me, or...atleast as much as me gets in a short space
I like holding hands with my friends,
and kisses on the cheek that are nice, and make you smile
I'm nice, and funny. I think you'd love me.
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I made my Journal completely  friends only.
so comment this entry only if you want to be added.
tell  me your name and who you are.

if i dont know you, i probably wont add you.

I am very tired, and have to leave for school in ten minutes.  Hmmmm today is probably going to be a long day. I want to go back to bed.   Well Bye