Well, here I am in Jordan. I awoke this morning to the haunting sound of the call to prayer. I think I might still be slightly jetlagged; I keep staying up really late and getting up really early. So there it was, 0500 in the morning, and I was sitting up awake. I looked out the window, hoping to see the snow that was supposed to be falling. And lo ( Read more... )

Here it is, Christmas Eve once again. This is the 20th one I've spent here in this world. Odd to think about, really. Today as I was working out at the Rec Center, I was watching a FOX News Broadcast from Bethlehem. The reporter was commenting on the enormity of the moon, a full, ripe light glowing behind him. Tonight, as I rushed out on a false ( Read more... )

Ah, yes. Here it is, the 22nd of December, and the great Christmas Cookie Travesty is about to begin. You see, every year, my mom decides to hold a massive Christmas Cookie party, inevitably complimented with some highly messy arts and crafts. 5-7 families complete with vastly too many little children come, and somehow it is our job (those of us ( Read more... )

Sometimes I become slightly contemplative, not necessarily thinking big or deep thoughts all the time, but today I couldn't help it. As I sat in my room, sipping on my peppermint tea from my Starbucks mug, I had to laugh at myself. I waas staring out the window onto the Plain and the snow-covered mountain behind it, working on my Environmental ( Read more... )

Wow.... It's really strange when you wake up from a deep sleep, and realize that you just had this wonderful, crazy dream about this guy that you're trying to convince yourself that you don't like but you in fact really like a lot. "Hello, to high and dry..."

So, this begins my foray into the wide world of blogging. Back in the day, I posted here all the time, but for whatever reason, after coming to the Academy, I fell out of that habit. I feel like I should start out with something eloquent and striking, as if I were writing for a crowd. In a way, that's what blogging is--writing so that others can ( Read more... )

It's been a long time since I've written here. I've had a different safety, an actual person to spill my thoughts to. But no longer--I'm alone once more. I suppose alone is a relative term. I'm no longer in a relationship--single. It's absolutely frightening. I don't even know how to handle myself. I hope I can be happy. I KNOW I can be happy. It's ( Read more... )

Hey get out of my mind
Then you tell me we got things to say
You come around here looking so fine
Makes it so hard to walk away
Oh, get out of my head
Because that look there could leave me dead
Then you tell me that you love me

I'll be there for you
I remember when I said that I would
Always love you, too
I lied
Don't come around no

It's stressful, it's tough, it's unforgiving--and we love it.

I'm regaining a sense of innocence. I honestly don't know how it's possible, after what I've seen/experience this year. And the funny thing is, this is only the beginning. Nevertheless, I can feel it coming back. That deep hope for the future, the excitement for living. It's coming BACK, and it's just the most amazing feeling. I feel alive again. ( Read more... )