happy birthday to me!

play me one about drinking, one about cheating, a few about loosin, lyin and leaving, one where somebody did somebody wrong, but dont play me no love songs.

i like the simple things i can wrap my head around.

ouch. talk about making feel small.

lately everything i touch breaks.
this is getting serious.
even if i have no reason, im unhappy about it all.
this time of the year depresses me.
during this time is when i wish for him the most.

i have no reason to. but i push. and pull. and fall.

shithead to shithead...i hate it when nothing makes sense but to the two of us. i hate how everything will seem so right, and then soo wrong. i hate how our minds and hearts like to play with our heads. your the only one who gets me.

im sorry, i wish it made sense to you. both of you.

=D

hehe.

i guess its been a while for me. im here. still trying to get back on track and now that everything stopped falling apart im patching up the holes, like past bills and shit, and then i will get back on my feet. i think in about a month i can start fresh. i shouldnt have debt anymore and ill be living some where new and be well into my job training ( Read more... )

today is my birthday! yay!
there is one thing i want, which i know i wont get, but if by some miracle by god i get it, ill inform you.

i didnt want things to be this way... just for the record.

.i had alot of stuff happen. i changed. my life flipped around. i found myself not knowing what to do or if i was going to stay around to find things out. depression took over and i just dont know. im sorry. i dont know what to do.

the three things that i regret. (as noted in my all about me book)
giving up
giving in
moving on.

why is it that those three things, my three regrets , seem like they are about to happen again.

im a fucking disappointment.