I think I may be a lesbian

i need to stop with these adderall binges, they make my heart feel like it's going to explode.

to lazy to exist. i really want to see chelsea and hawley in the next like 3 days

WOW I DID SO BAD THIS SEMESTER MY MOM IS GONNA KILL ME.
my final GPA for the year is a 2.73
oy, i mean it's not bad, like you only need a 2.0 to like stay okay, but it won't be good enough for my mom, and i won't get the good student discount for my car insurance...

no one ever listens to me.
i want to be the mom of the group.
i want to be in charge.

i think i've stepped out of real life, and i'd like to go back, but i'm having a very hard time doing so.
last night was beyond bizzare.
now i don't know how to feel, except depressed.

i don't know if i can do this again.

i'm surrounded by people but i'm lonely.
i miss arms being around me.
i miss hair being brushed from my face.
my body being touched in a non sexual and sexual way.
i don't want a boyfriend.
i just miss being held, wanted, loved.
i want big hands to hold me.
it's so strange being single.

i cannot do anything.

http://8.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_kr2smbCM5u1qzhepyo1_500.jpg

this is beauty