lets make this brief... i cant stop crying. i went to church. i updated my xanga.

i dont know how im going to deal with this. i cant/wont talk to my mom and shes acting as if nothing ever happened. wow.

September 25, 2004. The absolute worst day of my life, by far, no questions asked.. my parents are completely cutting me off from every single person in fountain hills. including natalie and james and just everyone. ive spent the past like 5 hours just crying and trying to cpmpromise with my parents and my dad is willing to but my mom wont. i dont ( Read more... )

wow dr was really gay last night... well anyways i decided to write in my xanga today instead ((if you're interested)). .

I have a break today from 1-130 and the performance ends at 245 so u can call me on my cell if you want. ill probably stay at pv mall until about 4ish

off to cheer <3 Pz.

tonight i am going to go to desert ridge with my baby jessica and possibly some other cool kids. we were supposed to go with other peeps like ray, caleb, and uh idk other ppl lol.. but they arent coming and idk about her boys kevin and brad. i just feel kinda like my friends are slipping away from me. before i used to go to the movies and stuff ( Read more... )

today is james' football game! and i cant be there once again. i feel like a really bad girlfriend, because i can never be there for him. not just regarding football, but just being there for him in general. i wish there was something that i could do to change that, but its like i dont have a say in my own life, because my parents dont think im ( Read more... )

what up dawg. lol ( Read more... )

last night was edgefest!!!!! weeeeee it was alot of fun even though i was only there for like 3-4 hours.. we would have stayed the rest of the time, but it started raining really hard and so they cancelled the end of the show which sucked ass, cuz i really wanted to see story of the year and they were supposed to play last ((but i got a shirt.. ( Read more... )

look around and you´ll see that at times it feels like no one really cares ( Read more... )

ya well my mom just told me that that we are only allowed to stay at edgefest for three fucking hours... so from like 3-6..... fuck that

today we had a half day at school.. that was soooo nice lol but since i was grounded, i went out to lunch with my mommy then we went to sports authority and i got a bunch of diff color soffes!!! =)!! then we went to target cuz my mom needed stuff. but i got some spongebob shit helllls yeah. i got the most rockin pants.. they say got kelp? on the ( Read more... )