feel like:
a vistor
sad
frustrated
tired
sore
old
boring
ugly
stressed
annoying
headache
don't fit
fat
sleepy
uncool
clingy
alone
its all wishfull thinking
smelly
trying too hard
best its gonna get

I had a interesting week. I feel like the week went fast and slow all at the same time. I can't believe the week was over but the days were so long. First off.....tuesday I had a client who showed me her new boobs. She had gotten them done 3 weeks earlier and its like a new car...you want to show your new purchase off. They looked good.... ( Read more... )

Holy shit! I hate people that think they are always right and thinks it their job to tell you what they think about you. They think they can read you so well. I really hate that. Then they thinks its funny when you get upset about it. What a bitch!!!!!! I hope she choke's on her own flem and dies!

how do you help someone who doesn't want to be helped? how do you show someone you love them when they don't want to be shown love? how do you help someone not hurt themselves? how do you help them stop the pain? how do you love someone who hate's themself? how do you help them before they end it all?

I have had a request for a update. Right now I feel like crap. I didn't really eat anything all day. I had some fruit this morning. I went to the gym and I only lasted about 40 minutes because I thought I was going throw up. Today was an interesting day. I from 3 different people that they were "up set" at me. Let me tell you thats a great ( Read more... )

I think I'm cutting my hair shorter...and maybe coloring it black....I have been inspired by some REALLY cool person. I think I totally messed up with my brother. I kind of...ok I REALLY gave his ex-girlfriend the cold shoulder/silent treatment tonight. He's totally pissed. He asked me to call her and say I'm sorry, which I did because I care ( Read more... )

Hey....so today was the whiskey row race. I did ALOT better than I thought I would. Actually I thought I would do worse than last year. ACTUALLY I did way better....I did it in 2:27:44 which is 28:02 mins better than last year. The thing I did this year that I think saved me is I just kept running, a slow and steady pace. I didn't even walk ( Read more... )

I am tired....I should be asleep. I keep coughing, I think I might cough out one of my organs. I have had a very interesting week, actually the last 10 days have been crazy. I would go into the whole thing but that would just take too long. Here's the short version....girl meet boy, boy flirt with girl, boy and girl bowl, girl and boy kiss, boy ( Read more... )

I wish there was a morning after pill for life. Something that could just erase what happened the day/night before. My "break down" is over. I feel better...I guess. My eyes were only kind of puffy this morning....not as bad as last time. My ho came over and brought salsa con queso, pretzels and cookie/cream ice cream. I really didn't tell ( Read more... )

I have decided I that I need a "break-down" about once a month. I don't know what my problem is. I just start thinking about all the crap in my life and I just lose it. I am really a brat. I have so many things good in my life and what do I do, think of all the bad. I just get so overwhelmed. I want to leave, move, far away from everyone and ( Read more... )