It would be easier to just collapse but i cannot.

I must regain composure and put a huge grin on my face.

it's going to be just fine.

zing

ii can't think of 3 posistive/good things for me today. this is going to be stupid ( Read more... )

my environment is a reflection of my mind.

it's hard to move from this spot.

i got promoted at work again. this time to what i've always wanted to be since i started there in march...display artist. weee ( Read more... )

i'm an asshole.

assholes go to therapy.

simple enough.

i just lay in bed and feel everything slipping past me ( Read more... )

I still feel a little off. Things aren't really back to normal they just appear to be so. It takes a while to fix yourself. It takes a lot of energy and time and shit. hopefully i can do it for real this time. i don't really think i have a choice ( Read more... )

You know those times where things just feel weird?

i've been feeling that way a lot lately. this past week has been absolutely strange.

I hope nothing is wrong and i'm just crazy. hahaha.

and maybe it's all my fault. my reality is distorted i suppose.

I get so upset that i can never hang out on movie night anymore. being responsible is painful and makes me tired. i wish i could sleep without worry and fear. my dreams almost kill me. i don't understand the way my mind interprets things.

i need to go to bed now.

i hate it.