So it's the 22nd. 25 days until I leave Pittsford. I'm so exited. My work ethic has dropped so much because I just really don't care about being here anymore. I can't stand it. Just everything that's going on... it's all just gonna go away as soon as I leave here. Just putting my mind at ease seems like a paradise right now. I'm finally getting ( Read more... )

Broke down tonight. It was embarrassing how it happened. I was watching Edward Scissorhands. you know at the end where she comes up to him, kisses him, and tells him she loves him? And then he closes his eyes like everything could end right there and it wouldn't even matter because of how happy he felt... I re-realized that that's exactly how I ( Read more... )

Another text conversation between Kelsey and I ( Read more... )

So here I am, procrastinating the 2 projects I've got to get done before my Drawing class in 2 hours. So I thought I'd throw up a journal entry ( Read more... )

This will be the last journal entry on the subject of Kelsey. She's taking up too much of my life and time for me to keep this up. It's just keeping me involved with her. Here is the ultimatum that we have reached: I'm going to wait for her until the end of summer. When I get back from Utah, I will start dating again. Whether or not the person I ( Read more... )

Since Kelsey's in Florida, away from AJ, and with family she's not too fond of, It's given her a chance to talk to me more. Which is really good. We've been talking alot. She's been telling me how much she loves me. She asked me the other night if that when we are back together I could help her get her drinking under control. I told her I would ( Read more... )

The past few days have been rough. Kelsey's in Florida right now and away from AJ. I'm almost disturbed as to how much comfort that has brought me. I worked the midnight shift again tonight at work and didn't have much to do but think about Kelsey. At one point I asked Kelsey to send me a picture of her, like she used to do. She did. She said she ( Read more... )

So I tried a little social experiment today. I tried going a day without any contact with Kelsey. Half to see if I could do it, half to she if she would try to contact me. Well, the entire day, nothing. I held my tongue. Then, at 7:21PM, I got a text from her. "How is your day going?" I replied a few minutes later with "good ( Read more... )

So last night Kelsey and I hung out for about 6 hours. At around 6 I picked her up from her house and we went to a nails place to get them done(story behind this: Kelsey told me that before she goes on her trip to Florida she wanted me to take her to go get her nails done (because I told her I would before we broke up and even after we broke up) so ( Read more... )

 So I woke up this morning thinking of her, crying. My pillow was kinda soaked. It happens sometimes. I just miss her. I miss holding her in my arms, telling her I love her, and watching the world melt away ( Read more... )