No, I don't really care that people might judge me right now. Not when this feels so right, down in my bones and into the frame of my being, I can sit in repose, knowing that this means what i want it to, and not what others attempt to project onto me. There is something about love that fills me with a strength i didn't always think i had. A ( Read more... )

the funniest conversation ive had all week:

me: so .. im engaged
him: youre what?
me: engaged.
him: like engaged to fight?
me: no, im engaged.
him: like youre busy concentrating on something?
me: no, engaged to marry.
him: whaaa?? oh, then i guess that sounded really stupid.

well today i was finally able to remember my login information haha amazing.

so whats going on in my life? hmm well i received a phone call this weekend informing me that my family may very well lose their house ... what that means for my car is at this time unknown. some days i think that there must be a creator for the sense that someone somewhere ( Read more... )

 seven years doesnt make it any easier, there isnt a day that goes by without a fleeting thought. apparently she still has audio tapes, originally recorded for purposes of protection. this may all be too much for me?

 im leaving after tomorrow, so if you want to see me before i go, call me (unless you are kelsey sullivan who might need to have someone call me for her for fear of personal contact).

all i see are twisted tree branches. id love to smell the road and ride the horizon.  

of all people, it suprises me that i seen to be the only one not dismayed about being home for a portion of the summer. i like being around my disfunctional family and hanging out with my crazy dogs.. even though im in the middle of an audit hahahah ..it just doesnt seem like a big deal anymore. everyone just seems so highly strung and stressed out ( Read more... )

so i am being audited by the federal government .. so i might be sent to jail? do they still have debtors prisons? the 'man' is puttin' me down i s'pose .. wtf

 it feels so strange

somedays there is a fine line between love and hate