Do you guys get the feeling as if your working against tiime? As if, if you don't become something better, if you don't advance as a human being, your soul will rot and fester and decay and you'll become everything you hate about humanity? Ever wonder when and how your dynamics will end and loved ones will leave your life? That point where your ( Read more... )

So I was talking to Stef about group dynamics, and I stated that I tend to avoid them for the most part, and that they're mostly useless. And before I got to explain her computer died, so I'm posting those thoughts here.

So let's say there is a person, let's refer to them by M, and there are two Groups with no overlapping circles, 1 and 2
Group 1 has ( Read more... )

The concept of fear, at least in the metaphysical sense, should be obsolete. I know emotional damage is entirely within the realm of control and easy management, yet I still find myself instinctively avoiding situations where I might put myself in "danger".
This fear keeps me from expressing love as much as I'd like to, there's always this looming ( Read more... )

Yeah, kind of felt like a creeper, so I thought I'd just post something ( Read more... )

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Lately I've been far less emotional. I also have a tendency to have strange imagery when I think about things. The image lately is of me walking through a land littered with corpses equipped with a pike similar to those that community service workers use to skewer trash. The corpses are my former selves and pieces of my identity and personality I ( Read more... )

 I need to do a few things.

1. Read every chapter in every textbook I was supposed to have.
2. Relearn photoshop. 
3. Take pictures of Maddy for her modeling portfolio
4. Make a resume
5. Ask Biko if he could teach me to make beats.
6. Make a defrag playlist
7. Finish writing a short story
8. Call my little brother more often
9. Go to a Buddhist temple for ( Read more... )

 I think everyone that knows me knows I'm something of a music enthusiast. I love listening to new and interesting music and I'm known to wear my headphones almost all the time (I often get sarcastic remarks such as "Nelson has ears?!" when I take them off.). But seriously, I fucking love music. Sometimes I think I even abuse it.

I find that I like ( Read more... )

I feel hyper as hell; although I should feel tired by now... odd ( Read more... )

Lately I've been feeling as if I want to say something but I can never find the words for it, it's terribly bothersome. It feels a lot like people have lost their hearts lately and are kind of withdrawing from others, myself included. I feel different now as a result, I normally draw so much strength and energy from my own warmth or others warmth, ( Read more... )