Revenant style, back from the grave. I am returned. I haven't updated in 140 weeks, that's pretty awesome, almost 3 entire years. This one's for you Mel.

My birthday weekend was fun and disappointing. I suffered through a rather nasty bi-polar episode. I was manic and combining friday night and saturday night I got maybe 4-5 hours of sleep. I got my dreadlocks done on saturday and I hated them. They didn't look how I thought/wanted/hoped they would and this sent my manic high to a depressed low. ( Read more... )

So, yesterday was my 22nd birthday, it passed uneventfully and unremarkably into the oblivion that awaits celebrations. "Someone loved it intensely for one day, and then tossed it. Like a Christmas tree. So special. Then, bam, it's on the side of the road." Fight Club always makes me so upbeat and positive. I never feel any real excitement over ( Read more... )

Today is the day.

The other night I had the coolest dream experience I have ever had. During the dream I realized it was a dream and became consciously aware "lucid dreaming". That is cool, but in and of itself, not really noteworthy. No, the cool part was the other thing that happened. At the same time I was consciously aware of my dream, I was also consciously ( Read more... )

So my group at "work" managed to make a social who for 6 years has dealt almost exclusively with assholes just like them angry. Somehow these people manage to consistently destroy her optimism, little by little. These people are being PAID to learn HOW TO MAKE MONEY, and for some reason they can't even manage to show up on time, or at all. With a ( Read more... )

Some asshole at "work" admitted he had no personality today, but he did it in such a way that no one understood what he said or why I was laughing. Stupid people make me laugh, and cry a little. I am going to be glad in 8 and a half weeks when I won't have to see these jerks anymore. I like the program, hate the people, such seems to be my luck.

I am a person who has been plagued by negative assumptions his whole life. People always assume the worst of me. I think assumptions are a waste of time and I don't make them about people. I have been recently told that I am merely in denial, everyone makes assumptions whether they admit to it or not. As far as I am concerned everyone is a blank ( Read more... )

So I realize that very few people if anyone actually reads this, but I think I need an outlet, and this is available ( Read more... )

I can feel it in the air. I woke up yesterday and felt like, I don't know, I lack the prior experience to explain how I felt yesterday. Good maybe? At least a little rested? Something like that, anyways I felt pretty damn good yesterday. After a day where I had more energy then I am accustomed to, I can only reflect upon my behaviour as "manic". ( Read more... )