058. Lies, Siwon/Siwon
Author: vainballerina
Title: Lies
Prompt: 058. Lies
Pairing: Siwon/Siwon
Rating: PG
Progress: 007/100
Word Count: 552
Sequel to Diamonds.
058. Lies, Siwon/Siwon
He was tired of lying, tired of faking it, exhausted of masking his own feelings and most of all, keeping what he wanted to say - wanted to express.
But of course he knew he was lying - every move he did, every smile he made, every laughter he forced, every word he uttered - it only brought him nearer to hell each and every day because he knew what he was doing were all lies. He had been doing this quite often now, lying, it was as if it was his new hobby, his new expertise, his new task. What prompted his lying? It was his broken heart.
He could vaguely remember how that evening went - the cold snowy evening he had shared with Kibum but it wasn’t the snow or the breeze that made it cold, it was Kibum’s confession or more of like what Kibum showed Siwon. And of course Siwon lied, lied right through Kibum’s face when he said that they weren’t together anymore - literarily they broke up but Siwon could swear that he could feel it, the tie that keeps him bonded with Sungmin and he didn’t want to cut it, no, not now, not ever.
However, being on a thirteen member band, news tended to spread like a virus even though he had heard it first from the man involved. “I didn’t articulate anything about my feelings for him. Fight for him Siwon hyung - he needs you just like you need him.” Those were Kibum’s exact words and even if the phone call ended two hours ago, the exact same words still rang onto every corner of Siwon’s head.
Siwon knew his lying had to come to an end, had to be stopped, had to be congested, because he was hurting more and more as he bundled up every emotion and locked it up. Everyone had the right to tell the truth right? Siwon then gathered up his audacity as he picked up his phone and he dialed that very familiar number - it was so familiar that it seemed it was his own - and placed the device near his ear. It rang once, twice and then a voice came to the other line.
“Siwon-sshi?”
The voice was sweet, gentle and child like just as it was supposed to be. Siwon couldn’t help but smile because he knew it was the very voice that he had been yearning to hear from the past few days, the voice that hunted him in his dreams and the very voice that made his heart flutter.
“Sungmin hyung… I can’t live without you.”
Those words that escaped his lips, those words that scraped through his throat, those words that fought their way out of his brain - Siwon couldn’t be more than sure that those very words was a big a break from all of his lying and he was proud because lying seemed to be just so overrated and he couldn’t live with it, no, not anymore.
Yes, Choi Siwon was tired of lying, tired of faking it, exhausted of masking his own feelings and most of all, keeping what he wanted to say - wanted to express - and he had just put an end to that and he was more than proud.
Started: 12 - 06 - 08
Finished 12 - 06 - 08
Title: Lies
Prompt: 058. Lies
Pairing: Siwon/Siwon
Rating: PG
Progress: 007/100
Word Count: 552
Sequel to Diamonds.
058. Lies, Siwon/Siwon
He was tired of lying, tired of faking it, exhausted of masking his own feelings and most of all, keeping what he wanted to say - wanted to express.
But of course he knew he was lying - every move he did, every smile he made, every laughter he forced, every word he uttered - it only brought him nearer to hell each and every day because he knew what he was doing were all lies. He had been doing this quite often now, lying, it was as if it was his new hobby, his new expertise, his new task. What prompted his lying? It was his broken heart.
He could vaguely remember how that evening went - the cold snowy evening he had shared with Kibum but it wasn’t the snow or the breeze that made it cold, it was Kibum’s confession or more of like what Kibum showed Siwon. And of course Siwon lied, lied right through Kibum’s face when he said that they weren’t together anymore - literarily they broke up but Siwon could swear that he could feel it, the tie that keeps him bonded with Sungmin and he didn’t want to cut it, no, not now, not ever.
However, being on a thirteen member band, news tended to spread like a virus even though he had heard it first from the man involved. “I didn’t articulate anything about my feelings for him. Fight for him Siwon hyung - he needs you just like you need him.” Those were Kibum’s exact words and even if the phone call ended two hours ago, the exact same words still rang onto every corner of Siwon’s head.
Siwon knew his lying had to come to an end, had to be stopped, had to be congested, because he was hurting more and more as he bundled up every emotion and locked it up. Everyone had the right to tell the truth right? Siwon then gathered up his audacity as he picked up his phone and he dialed that very familiar number - it was so familiar that it seemed it was his own - and placed the device near his ear. It rang once, twice and then a voice came to the other line.
“Siwon-sshi?”
The voice was sweet, gentle and child like just as it was supposed to be. Siwon couldn’t help but smile because he knew it was the very voice that he had been yearning to hear from the past few days, the voice that hunted him in his dreams and the very voice that made his heart flutter.
“Sungmin hyung… I can’t live without you.”
Those words that escaped his lips, those words that scraped through his throat, those words that fought their way out of his brain - Siwon couldn’t be more than sure that those very words was a big a break from all of his lying and he was proud because lying seemed to be just so overrated and he couldn’t live with it, no, not anymore.
Yes, Choi Siwon was tired of lying, tired of faking it, exhausted of masking his own feelings and most of all, keeping what he wanted to say - wanted to express - and he had just put an end to that and he was more than proud.
Started: 12 - 06 - 08
Finished 12 - 06 - 08