it has been a looooonng three years since i have updated my Lj.
i miss it, doing this probably would have gotten me through alot.
im 21 now, a single mother, and lonely. the man boy i loved turned out to not be such a knight in shinning armor ( Read more... )

All eyes on the calendar ( Read more... )

i should really stop dating guitar players.
i think that their guitar riffs seduce me all to well.
all i do is lust after them and become infatuated.
what a naive young woman i've become.

i layed sleepless last night ( Read more... )

im still sick, it sucks soo bad. i think im pretty much able to hang out with my friends but the sad thing is.. i dont want to. i think i am afraid of getting the opportunity of meeting a guy or hanging out with a guy or maybe even kissing a guy... and i think the reason i am afraid of this is i might start to like him, i might fall for ever word ( Read more... )

this passed month has been full of drama and heartache. this past month i learned i cant trust as many people as i thought, and that there isnt many people who actually mean what they say. i went to california for alli's graduation. it was fun for about a week but after that it all went downhill. people i loved before that said they loved me really ( Read more... )

...friendship shit. i cant seem to keep friends so what is the point in having them. it only fucks things up for me. sometimes i want to go back to not having friends again, and just staying home all day everyday. that seemed easier for me. i cant wait until the summer then im not obligated to go anywhere. i already dont feel like i belong here... ( Read more... )

so i thought i would start a new LJ
also i couldnt log into my old one soo i just made another one
much easier.