The pounds are not falling off - my hair is though!
Its so annoying... I want that fantastic feeling again. 
Restricting alone is not doing the job anymore.
And these jeans are still too tight.

I've been alive for 6348 days.

And what have I done with this time?

Your under, inside, all over me
Like a permanent itching
Inside my skin
Its torture being
So close
I can feel
Your breath within
All over my skin

I'm sick of not losing the weight.
I'm sick of people walking out when I enter a room.
I'm sick of having nothing to say.
I'm sick of waiting for the next morning to come so I can weigh myself again.
I'm sick of wishing the days away.
I'm sick of not doing anything.
I'm sick of hurting so much.

I want to go back. I want to go back to how things were ( Read more... )

Yeah so it was just the water - and I want to lose fat goddamn it!!!

I've managed to not have anything except tea so far today - i love my tea <3 - but I definatly have to eat some dinner or something like that. The pains of having parents around lol

I think I've just reached 105 lbs but I'm not celebrating just yet because it could easily be because I'm dehydrated. So I'm gonna wait and see. Still I'm very happy that I'm so close to the middle of my goal weight - and if I stick to this I want to do something for myself. I might go buy that xbox game I wanted or go into town and buy shoes ( Read more... )

I cleaned my room today - everything except for vacuuming the floor which sucks ass.  I also defraged my computer which is pretty good. Still not dressed though lol

It hasnt stopped raining for the last month. I really wish it was sunny - then I could get away with lots of walks and skipping outside. Right now my only exercise is dancing in my room ( Read more... )

There seems to be some sort of stomach bug going around my house - maybe its a good thing because then I can claim thats why I'm not eating a lot. Everyone's in the house because of the 12th holiday and everyone is noticing every little thing ( Read more... )

I've just binged on chocolate spread and white bread. I must have eaten 700+ cals
I'm gonna cry.
Fuck it.
Fuck.

I cant work out or my parent will hear me. Maybe I should stay up all night because that would use up more cals. I wont feel hungry or tempted to eat anyway. It's not like I'm doing anything tomorrow. I might as well. How can I work off 700 ( Read more... )

Binged horribly last night but somehow still managed to lose the weight.
So i feel ok. I've got a cold sore coming on - and i slept into 11:30 today - i think its my body's way of telling me its not feeling to good. So I'll take its advice and make sure I get my multivitamins today (cus i always forget)
My dads done the shopping and bless him he's ( Read more... )

So far today I have had just under 800 cals ( Read more... )