I feel like the whole world's some kind of weird dream right now. I somehow managed to go almost 3 days without being able to sleep and am still shaking like a leaf, my life is so very strange at the moment. I hate this medication, so much.

I wish my medication was working. i wish I could sleep. I wish I didn't have to do a presentation tomorrow in front of my lecture group. I wish I couldn't hear one of my housemates and her girlfriend fucking. I wish I could just go home. I wish I didn't feel so alone. I wish I could make a post that didn't make me sound so freaking emo once in a ( Read more... )

Anybody got any experience with Citalopram hydrobromide (Celexa, Cipramile etc.)? I've taken it before but I've gone back on it toay, took a 20mg dose about 8 hours ago and still can't stop shaking. I've never reacted like this before :S *worries*

Day by day I feel myself slipping back down deeper into depression. I know I don't want to go back down into this dark place but sometimes it feels like it's my home, like this is what's inside me and where I belong. It felt good to feel wanted, to have a life, friends, a girlfriend but I can't make it work. I can't keep myself happy, stable. It's ( Read more... )

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My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haulvalosgirlqueenb goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as Amy Winehouse on crack, again.child_in_dark gives you 10 light blue root beer-flavoured pieces of chewing gum.citysleepsalone gives you 2 purple evil-flavoured jawbreakers.dvine_insanity gives you 19 green cherry-flavoured wafers.ging3rkitten tricks you! You get ( Read more... )

I swear, every year things just end up getting worse.My hair is now a shade of blonde my friend lizzy has dubbed hitler youth hair through to dark red, with some orange in between. It's weird. I think I'll go buy some hats now and hide in my room for the rest of forever where I don't have to deal with Uni being utterly retarded and work and not ( Read more... )

Crack the shutters open wide, I want to see you here beside me. I want to watch the light bathe your skin in ( Read more... )

Haven't posted in a longass time, much has happened in the last month. Several essays wrtten, Tampere, Turku, Nokia, various airports, one hell of a drive that I managed to sleep through pretty much all of, Biarritz, Some place in Spain and today I climbed a mountain and watched the eagles circle overhead. Becky has been a busy girl. I have many ( Read more... )

I hate that seeing my friends happy and in love makes me feel sick, I don't want to be that girl. Or then again, maybe I just need some friends who are capable of not being all over their partner 24/7 and having a conversation about something other than their relationship. Please remove yourself from your boyfriend and stop slow dancing to punk so ( Read more... )