i feel totally deflated. Iam truely feeling shite right now. Why is it that i always like people who dont like me back, or people like me who i dont like the same way back? Will i ever find someone who really likes me and who i really like back? seems unlikely. Seeing George and Mark together last night, i could never have that with someone. They' ( Read more... )

i cant do this anymore. I miss you so much. I dont know what ive done, i wish you would just talk to me.  I wish you hadnt lied. I just want to know how you are.
You were the best thing in my life. Now theres nobody to care for me, nobody to comfort me when things are bad, no one to share good times with. I guess im just stuck in the past, i cant ( Read more... )

ive just realised how hard its going to be to leave. I hate saying goodbye. I consider myself to be a loyal person and i like to keep my friends close - it hate seeing them drifting away. I guess thats part of my problem - i cant let people go. Thats why i still have hang ups about my ex. Before i thought that itd be great to get away cause then i' ( Read more... )

you're never there when i need you. i could do without this. I had the most shit day ever yesterday and i feel like crap now. I really could have done with some cheering up but as usual, you chose a bunch of guys over me. Im fucking sick of this. I cant be doing with it anymore. Thats the past 3 times now ive needed you and you havent been there ( Read more... )

so i have 10 days to decide where im going to spend the next 4 years of my life and i still have no idea. Im so confused about the whole thing. I cant do this on my own, i need some help with it. I dont know what to do ( Read more... )

today has been a shite day ( Read more... )

 well i suppose this is very one-sided. You always take what you can and give nothing back. Its draining me and its unfair. All ive ever tried to do is be a good friend to you, have fun and be there for you as much as i can without asking for anything in return. But now its just annoying. Im sick and tried of it and you know what, if you're not ( Read more... )

trying SO hard not to cry.
i hate crying, i hardly ever cry anymore. it takes a LOT to make me cry and this has almost done it. 
everything has fallen apart. now ive been banned from speaking to the one and only person who actually cares about me. life is so shit. i cant deal with this anymore. i just want it all to go away. i wish i could black it ( Read more... )

my dad took a total rage yesterday for the first time in ages. we managed to go about 2 weeks without it kicking off and then it got ruined over some stupid thing about the bank. i didnt even say anything, he just went mental and said i was a disgrace etc. and while this continued in the car, he elbowed me really hard again and again and again. it ( Read more... )

cant say i can call u a friend anymore.