my life feels a bit empty right now. It's missing something. I'm missing something. Or someone.It would be nice for the gap to be filled. I have so much to give. Someone is out there. I hope.

well from reading over my last journal post it looks like I'm pretty much still in the same boat. I cant be bothered with this confusion any more. You clearly don't feel the same way about me as I do about you, even though that's what you said - actions speak louder than words. You have no passion or desire to care for me at all. And its crazy, ( Read more... )

I dont know whats going on. We both had a great time last night, and we finally knew where we stood. I felt so excited and happy, it helped clarify my feelings and made me want to persue things. Then my friend at work put all these doubts in my head today, saying that he thinks I deserve much better and that you aren't making enough effort for me. ( Read more... )

feeling the need to update this again. I really should get into the habit of doing it more often. Don't really know what to say. I'm past the point of caring or desperation. Everything is, or has, fallen apart. I have hurt so many people and lost a few friends. It hurt to read my last entry about how I talked to Bruce when I was feeling my lowest ( Read more... )

Its nearly two and a half years since I last updated this, I havent thought about it for a long time until recently. I really feel the need to start keeping a journal and get out a lot of the feelings that I normally don't let escape and they're dragging me down. I read over a few of the last posts I wrote and I'm amazed at how some of the feelings ( Read more... )

So I havent written on this in ages, i remember i used to write in it every week or so, now i only do it at times like now when i have no one to talk to and nothing to do to take my mind off things.

Im sick of being the 3rd wheel. Everywhere i go its the same. I have no friends here, im just a tagalong and a nuisance. Its so isolating and lonely. I ( Read more... )

so recently ive been finding things really difficult. I really want to drop out of uni but i'll have nowhere to live. So i could either wait out till the end of 1st year, hopefully get a flat (with who i dont know because i dont know anyone here) and then i could leave cause id still have somewhere to live and i could just work full time. Or i ( Read more... )

i hate this. I want to go away. I hate it here. I cant make friends, no one likes me  and i dont fit in. I feel so isolated and alone. Ive lost my phone so i cant even talk to the people who do care about me ( Read more... )

people dont understand. I want to talk but its hard, and with everyone being away its so difficult. People dont want to hear that you're not ok and struggling and unhappy. They just dont want to know that you're not ok. Everyone says 'Im here if you want to talk', but they never know what to say and its so hard to approach someone and say Im really ( Read more... )

havent updated in a while, but i feel the need to now ( Read more... )