I spent the whole day with my family today. That includes Kak Nina's family. It was a fun day especially during dinner at Tasik Indah. I really love the food there. It was so delicious ( Read more... )

No matter what happens I won't cry, ever. It hurts a lot to not be able cry. Who would ever thought that not crying would hurt so much. Tears want to fall but they won't. Because I'm scared that once I cry I will never be able to stop. I hate being vulnerable. I don't want to be pathetic ( Read more... )

To this day I can still remember her face when I asked her 'if you were given a choice which one will you choose? Friends or boyfriend?'
She looked at me ..though she did not said anything I can see it in her eyes. I just smiled. I was a little bit hurt but I hide it.
Then she quickly said 'I would choose you too ..but not infront of him.' What the ( Read more... )

I spent the whole day with Mashita and Sofiana today. I haven't hangout with them in ages. I missed them a lot ( Read more... )

I had a wonderful dream last night about him. I haven't had a dream about him in so long. It was really sweet and it made me missed him even more. In that dream he asked me why didn't I kept in touch with him and we had a nice chat. He was really friendly. Why did he have to appear in my dream? 

Memories can be so cruel at times even if they are the sweetest ones. They can stab you right in your heart when you least expect them to. They can make you do things that would easily qualify you to be sent to an anger management class.

He's the first guy I ever really loved. The one who could make my heart beat faster every time I see him. He was always in my heart, occupying the deepest part of it. But I think it is time I make him as a piece of memory and store it in the forbidden corner forever. He will never be mine. It's time I accept it although I have accepted it long time ( Read more... )

Nisa said I love you today. Not in a romantic sort of way but you're my bestfriend sort of way. I was surprised and touched when she said that. I guess she really did think of me as her bestfriend. I used to doubt her because I always think I was just a replacement for her other bestfriend who ditched her. Just like my ex bestfriend ditched me.  ( Read more... )

I'm going to start my first job ever next week. And I am absolutely terrified. I don't know why. Maybe because it is my first time and I'm afraid I would mess it up. God I hope not. Ugh this is all Nisa's fault! She forced me to joined her so that she'll have friends. Since it was her uncle's company ..I easily got the job. It only took 5 minutes.

The first time I met him ( Read more... )