I went out the whole day today. First, my family and I went to Midvalley. Later in the evening, my parents send me and my sister back home because I planned to go out with my friends. We wanted to watch a movie but at the last minute we cancelled it and ended up at Bukit Tinggi. I went with my bestfriends and my cousin. It was so much fun shopping ( Read more... )

Sometimes I hate being too nice or too helpful. Because in the end you get NOTHING. Absolutely nothing. People don't appreciate you and they only come to you when they want something or needed your help then after that just walk away. I rarely ask people for help and when I do, they always give you 1001 excuses. And did I mention they always broke ( Read more... )

I need to clear my head of the words that surrounding my head right now. Those cruel hurtful words. Leave me alone!!

I cannot take it anymore. My mind is full of memories. Memories that I wish I could erased forever if I could.
These images ...voices ...it just keep on coming back.
Everytime it appears on my mind ..I feel like crying but I hold it in. No matter what I will not cry again!
Like the other day when I break down ..TWICE might I add in the same day. fuck ( Read more... )

 
I am so freaking pissed off right now. I just found out that one of my old friends from high school just went to UK to further his studies. WITHOUT TELLING ME! How could he? I mean I thought we were pretty close. Am I not considered his friends anymore? He didn’t even tell me that he changed his number. I really missed him right now.

I'm having the day from hell
It isn't going so well
I need intervention
Attention to stop the temptation to scream

I know it seems like people care
Cause they're always around me
But when the day is done
Everybody runs

Seems like yesterday that my world came crashing down
Seems like yesterday I didn't know how hard I could cry
Feels like tomorrow I may not ( Read more... )

I haven't update this journal in like forever. I got so many things to do. Not to mention I've got loads of assignment to finish. So many things so little time. When its going to end?

I've been way overly emo the past couple days. Maybe it's the realization that I'm not smart enough for the classes I'm taking. And that's making me feel inadequate in every other department.

Its good to be lonely. Sometimes you’re safe when you’re lonely because no one gets to hurt you. But sometimes loneliness can get you, eat you alive and sometimes you don’t get to see it coming. And that just suck. One way or the other.

I feel like punching something. The people in this house are driving me absolutely crazy. Not just crazy but INSANE! And you know what? I hate being the punching bag. Ever since my mom started working again she's always in a bad mood. She's crankier, moodier (is that even a word) and always snapping. But only to me. Not surprising. The other day ( Read more... )