I've been so angry for so long that I'm not even sure who or what it is I'm mad at anymore. All this.....It's not where or what I pictured myself to be. I can't feel a damn thing anymore except for anger and frustration. I feel numb.

I feel like Cinderella because my mom demand me to be back by 12am sharp. I went out with my old friends. God I miss them so much. I missed high school. It's way better than college. In college I don't even have real friends. I'm close with some of them but only because we are in a same class. Anyway I feel like a reunion today. Hahaha. Too bad ( Read more... )

I've been getting a lot of headaches lately. Mainly because of the stupid embarassing presentation, finals and other stuff. I am trying so hard not to breakdown especially infront of people. I don't want them to think I'm pathetic and weak. I hate being vulnerable. I've had enough of people come and go as they please. I have no one. Not even my ( Read more... )

I feel so alone. Everyone assumes I've got a fantastic life and awesome friends when the reality of it is this: my best friends are too wrapped up in their own world, too busy to hangout with me. They didn’t even bother to call me anymore. If they do its only a few messages saying ‘Long time no see’ or ‘I haven’t heard about you in awhile’. Well ( Read more... )

I'm tired of hurting, I'm tired of lying ( Read more... )

Sometimes I feel like I'm living a pseudo-life ( Read more... )

It hurts so bad. I just might die. End it all in one final cry
The pain's so fierce I might give in
And let it all ....end
But I'm not stupid
I just want this pain to go away
Stupid negative thoughts ..fuck I hate it!

You make me feel completely worthless. You only need me when there was no one around to spend with. We've been friends for years. Been through so much ..the good and the bad. Now we've grown apart and it's killing me. What have we done wrong? Was it me or was it you? Tell me now. I don't care if it hurts.

What happened to our friendship? What happened to us? We never hangout anymore. No more calls just to ask 'what are you doing' or 'let's go out'. I hate this. It's like dejavu all over again. Only this time a different person. What had I done? Did I do something to piss you off? I have a feeling its about the whole 'breakup' incident. I may have ( Read more... )

My cousin just called me out of the blue just to say 'Wow nice ooze'
He cracks me up. Always teasing me what a nice ass I have.