I like how when you give up trying and stop caring so much.. is when shit happens! Really is true.. that when you stop searching is when you find things. There are aspect of life that you have to make an effort for.. things that you have to work towards to make them happen.. but the beauty of life is that there ARE somethings that are just random ( Read more... )

Been reading over some past entries and had to stop to slap myself across the face.. a couple times! When did I become such a fucking GIRL!? Maybe I should go get me some cheese for my WHINE! *rolls eyes* lol ( Read more... )

"Forgive me if I seem forward ( Read more... )

Time keeps slipping away from me. Sneaking past me. And some days I feel I have just wasted. Done nothing productive.. or even fun. Life is passing me by and yet most days I feel like just staying in bed and hiding from the world just the same ( Read more... )

Relay wasn't as exciting this year, than in the past. Just Brittany, Shannon, and I. Mandy was working at the Hang and so she joined us for the last few hours. We didn't do any themed laps or anything.. Ice cream sundaes at 3am though! ^^ haha ( Read more... )

It's the weekend already! This week has FLOWN by.. which I suppose is ok because it SUCKED hardcore. LOL Relay for Life tonight and then the Semi tomorrow. Not really looking forward to either. Got a pretty dress, cute shoes, and sexy underwear for the dance.. lol But of course I have NO date.. I get to be the third-wheel to the shannon-james duet ( Read more... )

"This is not what I intended. I always swore to you I'd never fall apart. You always thought that I was stronger. I may have failed but I have loved you from the start ( Read more... )

"It's The Only One You've Got"
3 Doors Down

How do you know where you're going
When you don't know where you've been
You hide the shame that you're not showing
And you won't let anyone in ( Read more... )

He tells me not to care, not to feel, not to get hurt.. So what does he want from me? For me to be cold and distant? I'm already involved.. if nothing else we are friends and aren't friends allowed to care about one another. I don't know why it's ok for him to get drunk and KISS me.. but I can't have "feelings".. What do you want from me ( Read more... )

Last night was one of the most amazing.. confusing nights of my life. lol Good and bad all mixed in one.. Part of me looks back and thinks "damn, I'd like to that AGAIN" but another part feels rather guilty. And not for the obvious reason.. lol but for my own personal.. inner conflict as it seems i have now. I betrayed my own feelings and it just ( Read more... )