well what all can i say now. im in deeper shit than i was before. i have no way out. its quite clear now. dying seems like the only solution. only if i die im a coward. the world is fucked up. it fucks with our minds and evenutally makes us the fucked up ppl we are today. the events that unfold are nothing more than memories now. what we did a week ( Read more... )

there are some ppl you just dont want to talk to anymore. especially the ones that are flaky. aside from that this year should hold some pretty interesting things. :P

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Alots happened I suppose. Not all good, but not entirely bad. Christmas is coming up. Its suppose to be a wondeful joyful time. I'm just hoping it gets that way soon cause Christmas isn't that far away. I've had a least 3 ppl I know of fuck me over. Time and time again. I've had enough of it. The sad thing is I'm not really to broken up about the ( Read more... )

I know its been almost a month since I've written in this, but I just haven't had the time. Jades been sick, she goes to get her blood drawn 2 times a week, I now babysit after school is out. So...between that and cleaning and taking care of me and what not..oh and doing shit over at my grandmas..I'm pretty busy. Thats my life in a nutshell right ( Read more... )

Well...my daughter was in the hospital for a full week. She's finally doing somewhat better. Her blood counts are back up which is great. *sigh* Now we are battling the teething. I've tried everything and nothing really soothes her. Needless to say it's tiring for her. Poor thing I wish the jaws of life would just come in already. Still no hubby. ( Read more... )

The world is in perspective now. All is erased. There are no use for words at this point. Its all been said and done. I don't see the point now. After everything thats happen and spending 2 days in hospital with my daughter things have certainly been put in line. I can taste the bitterness the hurricane has left. Until we meet again boo. And to ( Read more... )

I just thought I'd write in here. Don't know what to say really. I've been stressin' about some shit. It doesn't really matter though. My attitude is...whatever. I'm not gonna worry about shit. Well I'll try not to. Jade is growing so much. She smiles at me all the time. I wonder if she can tell how mommy really feels about stuff. OH! I ran into my ( Read more... )

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Just to let some of you know I won't be online for awhile. No aim, no yahoo, no myspace, no livejournal. Something tragic happened today and I have to find a way to cope. I actually have to work this out and not just drink my problems away. So stay healthy and happy. Peace out.