it's been a little over a month since this stupid breakup. thats all it is. sheer stupidity. i've seen him four times since we've broken up. the longest ive gone without talking to him is three days. but those are the facts. the feelings are what i need to get out, but i doon't even know how to. i've kept them bottled up that i dont know how to say ( Read more... )

darius may be moving to florida. oh my god. can i never win? thats like seven states away, god knows how many miles. darius are you really going to do this to me? i know, i have to be supportive of you i'm your girlfriend. but please, grant me this little bit of selfishness that just wants me to get on my knees in front you of beg you not to leave ( Read more... )

i love how alone i am. i know im only the most recent addition to your group but i didnt think that would matter. yet you all are together right now and im sitting home bored out of my mind. whatever im used to not being included, ya'all prob didnt even think of asking me but it hurts. espec. when i suggester tat we all get together to one of you ( Read more... )

so the dreaded day is getting closer and closer. im not looking forward to driving bridget to jfk. at all. im not looking forward to mia getting mad at me because i'll be unable to go to her dads wedding. shes gonna throw i fit but i already romised bridget, plus i wanna see her off ( Read more... )

what the hell happened to my life? its like everytime i feel like ive gotten my shit together and everythings starting to be okay. some new shit happens and fucks it all up. bridget got kicked out of her house. shes leaving next week. meghan is leaving in a few weekends. mia doesnt talk to me unless for some reason i randomly come to mind and she ( Read more... )

New Years: Darius gives me a ring, necklace, and earrings for Christmas, our one year and my birthday ( Read more... )

i havent posted on here in a while, cause i cant use my computer or laptop so ive been using the family one, which sucks. but everybodys at church and im playing hookie from work =P ( Read more... )

i have work 1-9 today. and i really dont want to go ( Read more... )

so monday me and darius are gonna smoke. the only reason i quit was cause HE biched at me and made such a big deal over it that i was like fuck it this snt worth us fighting over. and now HE says i wanna smoke. lets see we smoked together once over the summer, right before the camping trip weekend, the entire camping trip weekend. but god forbid if ( Read more... )

matt- i fell in love with you in second grade when you were james and i was jesse and we sang the team rocket theme song as louad as possible. it continued when you moved and i was the only person you told (i kissed you that day in the tunnel remeber? you screamed ew and ran away), only to return in thrid grade hatng me saying i had cooties. we ( Read more... )