Work is wonderful, dads still got a tumor in his head. adam smells like rabbit shit. my back hurts. the world sucks. The goverment sucks. people suck. Life is testing my paticence once again and im enjoying it.
the end.

Last few days have been alright. Working 3rd sucks. I got to spend some time with Adam though, I really miss that boy when I dont see him for a while. I guess i took it all for granit how well we get along. Emotionally, mentally everything. That boy holds my heart in his hands... i dont even think he knows it. I been thinking about trying to ask ( Read more... )

I scored out pretty good for my birthday dinner. Got some nifty shit ( Read more... )

Well well well. I got a new job threw a temp. service... but there looking to hire on so im going to be working 3rd shift starting this sunday night 11 to 7 am making 8 somethign a hour and if they hire me on id be making about 11 something a hour. Im loosing my license in 30 days with is going to be hard to put up with but theres nothing i can do ( Read more... )

My mom told me today that my Daddy has a tumor in his putatory gland in his brain. There think its non cancerous, but they wont be sure till they take it out monday i think he goes in for the sugery. Im keeping my fingers crossed that all will be ok. My dad is the only member of my family i have ever been/felt really really close too, and he ( Read more... )

a 30 min converstating with me and some randomy guy this is exactally why i hate online boys...but non the less quite amusing..... if you cant tell i am vampyremiztrez... any of you kids want a good time.. im this boy on yahoo ( Read more... )

Some times the nights are too long the hours seem endless. Here i am waiting with out you waiting for you my imaganary friend. The darkness is deeper and the sandman is waiting. My nightmears call to me and drain out my head. I still lie alone. My thoughts crawl out onto the ditry carpet and curl up and die. I long for the sleep. I slowly crawl of ( Read more... )

I need a job badly, Two jobs accually... Im just going to become a work-a-holic. If i can get the guts to go out and accually look for a new job. This is alaways hard. I have been doing well with my panic attacks untill a few nights ago. Cant breathe, chest caves in, paranoia fills my head. I dont know why it scares me so much to go out and do new ( Read more... )

Its all really getting to me now. Overwhelming lonleyness. I sleep druing the day to advoid any family contact and wake up around 11 so i can sit infront of my computer searously doing nothing but listing to music and starting at the screen. Hense why i decided to update this even though I havent anything new to add. Im missing all the people i ( Read more... )

So I sit here again with my mind wandering all over. This is my life, a series of moments spent thinking about what i should be doing and then more moments of complaining of overwhelming boredum. I dont know what to make out of anything. Theres so much I think I can do but nothing I really wish to do, job wise, life wise, friend wise. Since I have ( Read more... )