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Selling myself.
There are people I know that are going through far more difficult things than me, but I gotta let this out. Rock bottom. My whole body hurts. My brain hurts, it's like it has slowed down. It's like an overcast day in my mind. I don't want to get out of bed. I have been spending a lot of time in my bed. I should be going all cylinders on the job ( Read more... ) -
This is not entertaining
I think the worst thing is my total loss of hope. I don't really see a good chance for any of my dreams to come true. Try as I might, I try to visualize, meditate, read, pray, work out, say affirmations ( Read more... ) -
Choking on my words
I have so many things to say. SO many, it's like I can't even write them anymore. All these ideas, feelings, emotions, but I find it so hard to write anything at all. I'm at a place where I feel like I am treading furiously just to keep my head above water. Even though that's not true. Many people have been there to help me out, and assist me. I'm ( Read more... ) -
I Sill Haven't Found What I'm Looking For
I still believe in love. I believe in God. I believe in his love. I do hope one day I'll find a man that is true, stable, and gives me the love I deserve. But if it never happens that way, I'll be just fine. There will still be joy in my life ( Read more... ) -
Winter solstice- I'm still afraid of the dark
So winter solstice is approaching. This means I am feeling pretty bad. It's not so much that I'm in a full on depression, or that I am physically sick. No, it's more like I am in a continual struggle not to be in either of those states. This is how it usually is for me at this time of year. The Winter Blues. Seasonal Affective Disorder. Whatever ( Read more... ) -
Again? Really? Well, Alright.
I spent about three years of my life working towards becoming a counselor. I have a Master's degree. I am really quite good at my job. It's my calling ( Read more... ) -
Cold Day in July
My relationship status changed on facebook. Woooo!!! Let the parade begin! This is THE BIGGEST DEAL EVER ( Read more... ) -
Banner Ads and The Last Year of My Life
The banner ads that are currently on my LJ are for Singles dating site plentyoffish.com, and for Income Assure, which is "supplemental unemployment insurance". And ain't that a sign of the times, companies looking to make bucks on the continued layoff to the point that most people feel like its inevitable: like death and taxes ( Read more... ) -
Hot Fun in the Summertime
Alright so it's hot as hell in most of the country. I'm living in the city, and let me tell you I forgot why it gets so hot and uncomfortab;e and everyone up in Philly complains. These folks do not understand air conditioning. AIR CONDITIONING!!!! Not a small room air conditioner and a fan. I feel like I'm in Europe all over again. I know the air ( Read more... ) -
Nashville, I can't quit you.
Man, I'm still missing Nashville. When is this going to end for me? When will I embrace where I am instead of where I want to be? I'm trying. I really am. I guess it ends when I decide it ends. I haven't decided it yet.