My heart stopped. I heard his voice but i couldnt beleive it was true. I assumed that , just as i imagined seeing him places, maybe i was imagining his voice: 'hey ( Read more... )

ok so this is totally un related to ED at all but i found the most amazing site for music junkies (like myself). its call pandora (www.pandora.com) and pretty much what it does is generates a list of artists and songs it thinks you will like. All you have to do is type in one of your favorite artists and it analyzes the music components (rythm, ( Read more... )

Im a little conflicted about the james thing. here are two things i heard in the period of 5 minutes ( Read more... )

ok so i broke down in tears a total of 7 times today and all for completely seemingly unimportant reasons: first a chem lab i didnt know how to do, then a physics class i didnt understand, then me talking about dropping physics, then me going to dance in the car cause i didnt want to have to wear a leotard and jump around, then choir becuase i ( Read more... )

Why do i kid myself? how could i think that maybe a guy would like me; actually like me? it was too good too be true apparently.not only did he hook up with someone else that night but that person was overweight. not only that but she was about the prettiest fat person i have ever seen. she at least had confidence and a pretty face: i dont have ( Read more... )

Its monday: a new week ( Read more... )

So i have this problem where the minute anything happens (like hooking up) i just start formulating possible outcomes in my head. like: are we gonna go out, does he like me, if we go out well he just want it to be a relationship (and it goes on and on..) yet i dont even know if hes interested or if i'm interested even, i mean it was jsut a hook up ( Read more... )

so i always do this: i always put myself in this shitty position. I just have such a hard time saying know to a guy who wants to hook up with me. first of all for the whole time i was talkign to this guy it didnt cross my mind that that could have been waht he was after so i just sat there talking like an idiot until he went in for the move lol. ( Read more... )

first thing is that: i am so embarassed becuase i gave the guy a hickey which is just extremely embarassing although i'm not really sure why. i just have visions of all the guys sitting together and being like what the fuck she gave you a hickey what an ammature. or 'what a bitch'. its just embarassing and then i might be going back to the same ( Read more... )

so... i went to a party last night which was good cause it means i'm getting back into the social scene:) i met this guy who seemed really nice and he was cute but i couldnt really tell becuase i was too tipsy to have a coherant conversation so i just tried to talk about intelligible stuff but i dont think it worked out. then we hooked up but i ( Read more... )