We all make so many choices all the time. They seem to come in waves. It's hard to remember times like this, when there are a million doors in front of me and the choice is mine... hard to remember this feeling when I feel helpless and trapped, cornered by whatever path I chose and unable to control anything that happens ( Read more... )

Spontaneity is so much easier said than done. But I'm trying it. This new attitude of open-mindedness, spontaneity, and making-the-best-of-things... it's so far from the person I am. The person I was? I am not the same ( Read more... )

Dreams are funny things. You never quite get what you expect, and often not even quite what you want... which is funny, because it's really all up to you ( Read more... )

I wonder how much of my living time I spend thinking about dying. Definitely wayyy more than is necessary. I'm gonna work on that by doing whatever makes me happy now. That may be the worst idea, or it may be the best, I am not sure. But here it goes anyway...
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This quarter is going to kick my butt. Again. But you know, it makes the time go by faster, and that's really what I want. Because I already miss home. I was there just long enough to remember why I call it that and what it is that just... doesn't exist in Santa Barbara. I'm glad I'm close by and I've already got several weekend excursions on the ( Read more... )

The last week or two of 2008 did make a pretty good push for 2008 as far as most eventful years go. However.. i've spent what, 2 days? living in 2009 and my goodness.... it's already quite a ride ( Read more... )

I'm feeling suffocatingly alone ( Read more... )

Election is OVER, thank goodness.
Nothing surprised me, excited me, or disappointed me.
No results that is, some people maybe...
That's really all I have to say about that.

I'm... content ( Read more... )

I'm still here, I just find myself wasting time elsewhere. Although, in general, I am wasting less time than I ever used to. Or at least since finishing high school and leaving life as I knew it behind... social life, fiscal life, academic life, family life, life in general... yeah, the traces of my high school version of it are finally almost gone ( Read more... )