so i'm putting off my english paper to write on here. it's about anxiety. ironic eh? :/ i thought it'd be really easy..and i keep getting distracted. i wrote a cute note to josh, and now i'm done. so i need to keep ignoring my stupid paper. it should snow like RIGHT NOW. i mean it's so goddamn cold.

on a lighter note, things are great. i ( Read more... )

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i'm so sick of making everyone upset, and i'm so sick of not being there for people who care. thanksgiving was a fucking joke..for a while. i saw my ex boyfriend. i don't know why he's keeping it a secret, why can't he just tell her? if he cared about me, he wouldn't hide it. he wouldn't care about her feelings, he'd care about mine. i miss ( Read more... )

oh man lets see here. first of all, i've felt like absolute shit for the past week and iuno why. it's only monday. bad sign? so i got fired from my job, don't ask, but i'm in the process of getting a new one cause i need money for stuff. ben dropped me off like an hour ago. we went vince's & then dj came over and they decided to go riding so ( Read more... )

my life has CHANGED DRAMATICALLY in the past couple of weeks. ugh, it's so weird. ;/ ben's coming to pick me up from school like half an hour early, he should be here in like 10 mins. hmm. i hope i don't get in trouble. :D i don't feel good today - i guess we're going to my house && then to CB's to get money cause we're picking up cigs. i got ( Read more... )

i've been thinking a lot lately. so much has changed in these past 3 months. it's so weird not being with my ex boyfriend because that's what i was so used to for eleven months. i can't go to the mall anymore, because i'll get a weird feeling..but i have to go soon, i just..idk? i regret monday night. i was extremely fucked up and was passing ( Read more... )

i don't know why i'm updating this..ever. probably because ryan sent me his link & made me come back to here. fuck you ryan, sideways. :) <3. anyways, well this weekend was eh..interesting? friday i went to the fair & hung out with kev and andy. i pretty much just was all around grouping with everyone. lots of fun. i saw like so many people i ( Read more... )

wtff so much has changed :O

i have no idea why i'm updating this thing. it's thundering & lightening. :O i'm going to RI tomorrow and i'll miss my alex VERY MUCH. ugh i hate not talking to him, it makes me miss him so much. i went to see my uncle yesterday at work after not seeing him for almost 10 years, really weird again..but i was happy and he says i'm hot. haha. ohhkay ( Read more... )

where the fuck does time go? i remember it was may and i was all worried that school would never end - and now it's over. it's like, yesterday i was in class..and now i'm already into my 2nd day of summer. jesus. i know i'll look at this entry too and months will have gone by. has anyone else noticed that?