i'm back...

things finally seem to be going my way.

if only he would ask me out.

last night my sister called
me conceited, to my face.
and someone broke my camera.

i came home at 3am in tears.
i told my parents everything.

about the drugs.
about the drinking.
about the sex i've had.
about my eating disorder.

i feel completely hopeless.
i've never fought with my
sister before. i'm lost..

i have butterflies.
i love the feeling.

i want this to last.
i want a relationship.
i want to fall in love.
i hope he feels the same.

♥

[i have a date tomorrow night.
some boy i had a major crush
on at windham high school...

i hope i dont make an ass
out of myself. like always.]

[christyn and i got facials
today. i decided that next
fall, i'm going to school
to become an aethetician.]

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i'm on the road to recovery.
i just pray that this will work.

its a neverending battle.
and i'm slowly losing...

valentines day is less than a month away.

how depressing...

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