it was one of those 'what's wrong with me' weekends. sick of seeing everyone around me happy. i know, that's shitty, but when do i get my turn? okay, im done feeling sorry for myself ( Read more... )

tonight i was reminded of my first heart ache.  i listened to radiohead's black star on repeat until i'd run out of tears.

my three day 'weekend' is almost over.  it was mildly productive.  went out a couple times at night and went to the natural history museum for the billionth time.  i think the last time i was there was this past winter.  as usual i got there with only an hour before closing.  must . see. dinosaur. bones.

if my passport was stolen, do i have to wait ( Read more... )

Today was work and no brunch.  not cleaning my apartment and dancing around to the new lil wayne.  feeling guilty about being a shit daughter.

ya ya ya.

i think i've had an anxiety attack every night for the past couple weeks.  i've actually been sleeping with the lights on (don't laugh). 
jay and i have been staying up watching horror movies every ( Read more... )

The cat's in the sink, the dogs tipped the bin, and i don't believe i brushed my teeth today...or even left my bed.  thinking about what i said yesterday.  ok, what i didn't say.  i'm an idiot.
after years of forgetting and moving on, i don't know how to tell you how i feel anymore.  i don't remember how to tell anyone how i feel anymore.
i'd like to ( Read more... )

so this is my last night in ny...for who knows how long ( Read more... )

today i quit my job.
bought a one-way ticket out of New York.
i ship off in 6 days.

it's that time again.

Jay and Scott are in Philly...have the place to myself.
hmmmm....

Ever since i lost Soma ive been so paranoid about anything that seems off with Haddy or Pasha. i got home from work today and Haddy was severely bloated to the point where she couldnt really get up without a struggle. i go online and read about dog "bloat" and of course start to panic. i got in a cab and took her to our emergency pet clinic ( Read more... )

woke up at 4pm today. had the biggest headache in the world from sleeping too late.
looked out the window and it was snowing. about time.
scott was throwing up because of really bad food poisoning, so i took the dogs out with me to get him some sprite.


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i dedicated this entire day to eating unhealthy.
seriously, i'm laying on the couch right now like a beached whale.
cant. move.


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