Okay, most of the time on here I rant and rave. Now, some of us know that four years ago I was diagnosed with a heart condition. As of this writing I am on a week's medical leave from work under my doctor's orders. Reason: I have been diagnosed with Extreme Panic Attacks. I too have been seeing a counselor for my recent (if not prolonged and more ( Read more... )

Okay, here is one thing that I am very OCD about. That is making plans in advance. This is the best possible way to ensure that you know what the dealy yo is and who will be going attending etc. I have gotten to the point that there is no need to do (or attempt to) with a certain group of people that I call "friends". Well, I have seen them once or ( Read more... )

Somoene else that I knew died of cancer today. I was not close to them, however when I look back at the number of people that are dying due to cancer it is staggering. My Uncle John died two years ago, my step-sister Susan died nine years ago ( Read more... )

You know something? In all the stuff that I have encountered in my life, all the tough times and bullshit that ALL of us go through...I have NEVER given up. Never, I have never thrown the towl in the ring and said "I quit ( Read more... )

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Um, yeah. Anna Nicole Smith is dead. Get the FUCK over it. Hundreds of other people lost their lives yesterday too. Oh wait, they get no media attention because they did not flash their boobs for the camera and were not known across the globe as million dollar sluts. Shut the fuck up about and it quit immortalizing human trash.

Yeah, I fuckin' hate Christmas and all the damn bullshit that fucking goes along with it. People and there merry little fucking "want" lists running around being all fucking needy and shit. Fuck you all and your little fucking exsistance. Get a fucking life or get a hobby, if that does not suit you then just put a fucking gun in your mouth and do ( Read more... )

I did something this week I have never done before. I gave up on a friend. They have been crushed by losing someone they loved very much. In the process, they have shut everyone out and have locked themselves away from the rest of the world. I said I would never give up on a friend, but they refuse all help and love that people can give them ( Read more... )

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