31 Dec-3 Jan:Carl brews ayahuasca for 12 straight hours, enough to fill 40 mason jars with brown goop. It is conjectured the fumes from this activity, coupled with months of intense DMT abuse, are what set him off. He is partying New Years Eve with Matt and the neighbors. Then he is sitting, pensive. They ask him to go get cigarettes for them. ( Read more... )

The police raided our house yesterday. See, Carl has been doing sleep deprivation the past 4 days and he's gone beserk, thinks he's a superhero. The neighbors called the cops and said he's got a gun and is going crazy, which is true in word but not in spirit. He does have an assault rifle in the closet and is wearing a black robe and yelling at all ( Read more... )

Valerie: there are prositutes a few blocks away but everyone pretty much minds their business ( Read more... )

"Every time we're shattered, we get to piece ourselves together however we want." My systems are 58% back online. I like how I'm coming out so far, this time ( Read more... )

So now I've got two ex-girlfriends obsessed with me stalking my LJ. And an ex-girlfriend's ex-boyfriend stalking me, and random faggot from Nashville stalking me. I'm going to f-locked after this post, so y'all are going to have to be my friend before you can read what my friends read.


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I didn't see much of Matt at first. It would be clear from later episodes that he wasn't somebody who hung around long; rather, his MO is to blow in like a hurricane, wreck shit, and disappear just as swiftly as he came. He sweats through all his clothes and tosses them all over the house, and asks us if we have any clothes he can change into. He's ( Read more... )

"Why don't you put the pull-up bar in the empty room's doorway, that way you can keep your room locked? How did you even have that room open, anyway ( Read more... )

When I say that I died, I can understand your disbelief, but know that I (past/alternate tense) did die. (Interestingly, in Japanese, adjectives can take the past tense, though not pronouns.) I say die to mean being ripped from one's current frame, which feels every bit as real as The End. Even though I knew I done did the drugs, I was sure it was ( Read more... )

I moved into this place at the start of a work week, had an onslaught of life matters to attend to that week, come home every day by bus, and consequently: I spent the first week in a tiny clearing on the floor, hemmed in by my stuff piled from floor to ceiling. I had so much stuff crammed in that I couldn't move enough stuff to make room to move ( Read more... )

I've become disgusted with excess, with fiscal irresponsibility. I want to keep every cent that I earn. I've bought the cheapest phone possible, and set up an SMS gateway on my home computer that allows me to do all the things a smartphone can via a SMS menu system. I ride the bus everywhere. I've sold all but the essentials, and my remaining ( Read more... )