dream update ~

[vazquaz]

i dreamt that there was a fresh corps to dig up on a sandy beach

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[mayapurple]

hmmmm..........what the hell does that mean?

-M

[vazquaz]

it means that i have everything at hand (the spot at the beach where the body is burried and time of murder) regarding granddada.

all i have to do to rmbr is ... to look (dig up the body).

but since that is an experience of the past that has been
very hard on me back then, i still stand w the fear of that little girl
who has been through it (looking for ways to dig up the body not looking/facing it..trying to figure out a way to avoid the 'confrontation' the body's shape/condition, how its been killed/or is it still living but in shock and fkn freaked out).

only problem is .. i can't.
i have to look to see.
if i don't look i wont see.
i have to get my hands dirty .. there is no other way.

simple as that.

~= o

[mayapurple]

fkn salt shaker wont do it, z what u're sayin
mhm
tht part totally makes sense

buuuuuuut...
still... why is it that t time was not long ago... only few hrs ago... n not... years... ?

-M

[vazquaz]

i'm not sure.

but i sense it's because i have been in touch with it very recently.