though there is nothing i can do to change your mind, I still love and care for you with all my heart, even if your heart has changed. Perhaps with time I can come to realize and even accept, but for the time being I still feel as though we were meant to be together and that the 3 years weren't for nothing. I would so do anything to have you back ( Read more... )

Shadows on my wall ( Read more... )

I read the few posts beth makes and become sad. As of late she has just seemed so sad and lonely, I pine for her and wish her well in her journey. I don't wish her to be alone and it truely hurts my heart to hear that she is not doing well. I still want to know how she is whether it's good or bad and still want to be there for her. I wish that if ( Read more... )

One day at a time, that's all I can say. Trying to get shit together for the bands, keep my head straight and be there for my friends, cause that's all I've got, and I'm ok with that. I have a lot in my life. An ex-girl whom loves me still and cares the world for me, my bandmates are close friends that I can trust. I have a fucking band, or two, a ( Read more... )

Just trying to be ok with life, but I just keep getting bored. I'm about to be out of work for like 2 weeks, and have to find a real job. Going to Birmingham next weekend to hangout with Kori and Mel. Other than that just looking forward to the show saturday. Oddity of the week, Emily is in town and is cold towards me, cold shoulder and all, but ( Read more... )

It is time for things to change, and Beth is right last night, it is up to me to wake everyday and say, "Today I am going to be happy ( Read more... )

Words get in the way of the emotions within. Tired of thinking, I just want to get away from myself and my head for a while ( Read more... )

There is no chance for things to progress further than friendship with me and Erin, and the other night things were just weird. I was drinking, whiskey and whatnot, and things just came to a stop and I realized that once again, due the desires of others and what THEY want, I'm alone. I'm tired of others getting what they want and there is not a ( Read more... )

Answer, NO ( Read more... )

Tuesday, so hooters is later tonight, I guess. ::sigh:: Just when things seem to get better, you suddenly realize that you are still you and the problems are still there, just waiting patiently until you stop being busy. It's been close to 2 weeks since BYM has practiced and that is my fault, but we have a show in 2 weeks and I want to have at ( Read more... )