Not dead enough...

[veelmore]

... half a year in the big city capital, life has changed somehow. I dont know my neighbours and they dont seem to care. I like my job though, worth every penny I earn there. Still and that scares the living shit out of me is that I feel jealousy for the first big time. Of course because of a girl. Ain't it always the girls?
Says she cant give

Comments

[salrushdy]

overall you sounds much better

as about this girlish/boyish stuffs
there is kind of ppl, a little bit f---ked up
i belong to this class perhaps
"only happy when it pain"
we seek for this options
even unconciously perhaps
you have to strugle mental masochism
although it is addictive,
i know it well

[veelmore]

thanks for still hanging around. maybe the test I face is when to call it quits, when not to go through with masochims although it feels so good :-) when was the last time you said: "no" ?