"Calling all. This is our last cry before our eternal silence."

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yWyLaXCV2_s

maybe for this blog, because you found it, jj!

she is back.back in my flat where she fits so nicely. she wants to try again. she told the other guy "no" (dont know her exact words) i was happy to hear that although i feared that moment. uncertainty is not easy to live with ( Read more... )

only a few hours left... emotions in me and then again they are not... can i admit defeat... can i stay true to all my feelings... watching the fountain instead of closer... can we change... i know i did somehow... but my change makes it even harder with her staying herself... what will she say... what does she think... everything is allright... ( Read more... )

i am back, reading my old stories, seeing how i was back then. i am back not to ask for help, begging for comments, like i did back then, but to save the thoughts i have now for reading it later like i do now ( Read more... )

oh yes, vic, there is adrenaline definitly, there is feeling, there is hope, there is wishing, there is the big beating of my heart, there is the smoking filling my lungs to replace the emptiness in my heart, the longing of my thighs, the wishing for her missing me, the words from me to her, the expecations she cannot fullfill even if i tell her, ' ( Read more... )

i feel so blue tonight even after having a great week and weekend with her. why? why? why? tonight she wants to stay alone on her couch she says, maybe visit her ex-boyfriend for giving him some money for a concert they will attend next week. well, i could come along with she said but doesn't it occur to her that it would feel weird for me, since ( Read more... )

When you are young, everything feels like the end of the world. But its not and you hope for the next beginning.
When you are as old as me and everyhing still feels like the end of the world, you loose hope.

she cried on the phone, asked her if she wants me to come over, she said yes and i did. so we spend the night, the day together, was close to leaving again, was close to coming together again with her, finally said we should think about it. now she sends me a SMS that she wont come over cause she is lost and maybe another day i will take her closer ( Read more... )