This morning I got down on my knees and prayed by myself for the first time in probably 15 years. It was humbling.....felt really good to be doing this. My sponsor suggested that I pray to know my HP better....so this is what I did....and also thanked him/her for putting people in my path last night and allowing me to be abstinent ( Read more... )

I am going to have to be somewhat brief, because I really should be asleep right now...but I had to write down this feeling, this knowing while I still have it ( Read more... )

After having such a horrible morning yesterday, I am pleased to say that last night went much better ( Read more... )

Sometimes I believe it is my mission in life to drive myself completely crazy. I've been so anxious all morning.....worrying about and getting angry about one thing after another ( Read more... )

I went to an AA meeting last night....it sure was different from the OA meetings that I've been to. But I heard what I needed to hear and it was helpful. I talked to my sponsor last night as well and told her about my 90/90 plan. She was very impressed ( Read more... )

I am still in a state of perpetual confusion. I don't know where my life is going and I don't know what I want ( Read more... )

I have started working the steps again and feel better already. I felt so disconnected in the meeting last night.....usually someone says SOMETHING that connects with me or that I can relate to, but I wasn't hearing anything last night. That troubles me. I think it might be because I feel really disconnected with God overall and haven't worked the ( Read more... )

Today has overall been a really good day ( Read more... )

Shortly after my last entry, Justin and I had a huge breakthrough. I would have never predicted it happening in the way that it did ( Read more... )