There was a time when I was so much stronger than I feel right now. A time when I didn't want to date anyone, didn't feel like I needed anyone. It was right before I met Justin ( Read more... )

Today looks like another absolutely beautiful day outside. Too bad I have to start doing schoolwork that I put off all spring break ( Read more... )

Today was an absolutely beautiful day. Haven't had such a nice day in a long time. A very long time. Justin and I drove to Bardstown and walked around the state park, had a picnic, and laid in the sunshine ( Read more... )

I slept a little easier last night. As I was waking up, I kept hitting the snooze and having dreams. One about Dr. Cooksey, I couldn't figure out some damn problem that he wanted me to solve ( Read more... )

It is the close of another day. And I am still alive. And I haven't binged, starved myself, or drank to deal with my pain and sadness. And believe me, I went through more pain today than I have in a long time. Actually, I can't really remember a time when someone hurt me this much. Maybe a long long time ago, back in the years before Doug and I ( Read more... )

I've just been walking around in a sad, blurry daze all day. I've been going through the motions of things but not really been here ( Read more... )

Ugh. I had a terrible night of sleep last night. I woke up probably at least ten times, had a really hard time falling asleep, tossed and turned (my blanket was completely on the floor at one point), and had really weird dreams all night ( Read more... )

Jennifer just left and I am so so so grateful to have a friend like her. It really made me feel better to have her here and to watch a movie with her and just be able to chat about stuff. It helped me to keep my eyes on my future goals and not get depressed about what is occurring at the current moment ( Read more... )

Today marks the closing to another period in my life. Today I had to let go of the man who I fell deeply in love with and cared about more than anything in the world. The man who I devoted the rest of my life to at one point...the man who I would have done anything for ( Read more... )

I haven't got a whole whole lot to say today. My life is very good right now. Meetings are going wonderfully.....I feel so much better and am meeting some really cool people. I've been able to introduce myself to all kinds of new people at every meeting and been able to speak at most. That's such a great feeling for me ( Read more... )