This has been the worst day in about a year. I broke up with Frank. We broke up over something so stupid. E-mail. The Internet. What the hell is so enticing about IMing someone? Why does it cause me so much pain? We've had this fight over and over and over for the past two years and I am so sick of it. And it's all because he can't stop talking to ( Read more... )

I was going to write this long entry about me and Frank and our one year anniversary. But I think I'm just trying to keep my mind off of my dad. Right now in the next room he is throwing up, as he has been for the past few days. He's so sick right now that he can barely get out of bed. He's retained so much water from taking Prednisone that he has ( Read more... )

I'm exhausted as usual. Right now I'm waiting for my next class to start. I've had the past 2 hours to just sit here and think and do nothing really because my Soc class got canceled, and it's 3 hours long. Thinking has become a dangerous thing for me in the past couple months. Partly because I'm paranoid, partly because of things that I know are ( Read more... )

This has been an exhausting weekend. My friends and I went to Zion and went hiking today for about 7 hours, LITERALLY. My body aches everywhere. But there seems to be a bigger ache in my heart. I really can't help it, but when I'm away from Frank for more than a day, I feel this huge hole in my heart. It's not that I'm fucking pathetic, or helpless ( Read more... )

And he said ( Read more... )

Every Christmas seems to be nothing special. I have little money to buy presents with, I'm frantically working, and trying to get all my errands done. So it basically just amounts to one big STRESS. This is basically just a vent entry. I feel like screaming. I did so badly this semester. I am brilliant and I know this. I could have gone into the ( Read more... )

Confused and alone, that's where I'm at now ( Read more... )

Bittersweet Smile ( Read more... )

To Justin;
Finally saw you again,
Finally picked up my pen
Tell me what you thought.
Those stupid presents you bought
Not for me, no.
Never wanted any,
Never wanted a penny,
All I needed was to see,
Any feeling you had left for me, but
Not for me, no.
Supported you for almost a year,
Supported my love, for you later just to leer
Once and awhile on the phone
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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok. Today was the Class Magazine Scholarship Awards Ceremony. Today was the day I found out if I won the Sandy Thompson Memorial Scholarship. And I FUCKING WON! $10,000!!!! I won because of My Journalism Scholarship Essay Masterpiece, everyone thought I was being conceited, but that was ( Read more... )