So my divorce should be final today at 1430. For this, my heart is bittersweet. I could use a drink, but that is a past time never to repeat. ( alcoholism )

Thank You
Eyes blank
no glare
I sit
and stare
Dead inside
all alone
heartbroken
cold as stone
Breathe into me
make me alive
Take all the pain
help me survive
Let you have
all my fear
every scream
every tear
all gone
you're here
thank you
my dear

I hate everything and everything hates me. My life has been turned upside down and I just don't know if I want to fight anymore. I love my husband, but I don't think I'm in love with him anymore. We never see each other and we have nothing in common.When I think of him it's like thinking of my brothers. He is my best friend...but I will more that ( Read more... )

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Let me taste your fear,
it truly is choice.
And for dessert, your pain.
I hear it in your voice.

So palpable and pure;
roll it on my tongue.
There really is no cure
for my words, they stung.

Cry if you must,
I hope that you do.
It's really only lust,
so why are you so blue?

Hate Me
Hate me if it makes it easier;
never wanted your heart for torture.
So if it takes away some pain,
fill your words with acid rain
to cover me and melt me away;
cripple me with what you'd say.
Cut me open, make me hurt.
Say it plainly, please don't flirt.
Unless it is to make me suffer.
In that case, use a buffer.
Drag it out, long as you will.
Maybe it ( Read more... )

An attempt at a song. Wish I could post the tune too ^_^ Here you have it:

Run Away
v. 1
Could I disappear far away from here?
Could I tell myself you don't want me here?
Could I run away and leave you empty
and make believe that you don't need me?
I hate myself for feeling like this.
I hate you more for stealing all my bliss.

Chorus
I...I wanna run away
I ( Read more... )

This one has been started, stopped, and restarted so many times. Pencil, different colors of ink, even marker are all over the page. Scribbles here and there, lines marked through, changing the tense or the whole phrase. Another work in progress for the past several years. It's interesting to see how something can evolve when your perspective ( Read more... )

This was begun a long time ago. In fact, at the top of the page is a list of items to buy for a cook out, which was held at my Nanny's house. I still lived with her. We'll call it 6 years. I only got half-way through it. And now it is finished. I finished it a while back too, just never posted it. Here goes.

Closure
What do I do to forget this ( Read more... )

Real Life Fairytale
The glow of the candle light, soft and warm
is nothing compared to the caress of your arms.
Every sweet motion your body makes
decides each breath that my own will take.
Such a mystery, your smile and your eyes.
I wonder if it is real or just a disguise.
But I know in my heart, down to my core,
your love is the enigma; but I will ask ( Read more... )

Stay
The pain I feel is indescribable
and my love for him undeniable.
To love someone so much as I do
yet sometimes that love makes me so blue.

I can't understand, logic has failed.
All my efforts seem to have paled
in comparison to his to keep me at bay.
I wonder if it will always be this way.

Am I trying too hard, is it mean to be?
Or are we to stay the ( Read more... )