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Back and writing a long post about it.
Well. I'm back. :waves: I had my internet amputated when I moved back to newcastle but I'm connected again. Sorry, i had no idea it would take so long ( Read more... ) -
A good day for bad underwear
Went shopping with my mother, had two glassed of sparkling wine champagne and the filling from a sandwich. Plus a yoghurt and a couple of samosas and some parsnip crisps. About 600kcal. And walked a lot. I've been doing terribly lately. I'm not properly ED'd. I'm somewhere between recovery and, well, wherever. I got called "slim" today. Not sure ( Read more... ) -
Shhh. I'm hiding.
Okay, for once I am not desperately optimistic. I admit I am not happy.
I feel very strongly at the moment. Dont know what I feel, but it's not good.
I havent been restricting so much lately. I dont know why. I don't like eating.
I'm tense because I can't exercise because I hurt my knee. I've run out of my SSRIs so now I'll have to go cold turkey ( Read more... ) -
she's still here
Motherfucker. I just typed an entry and my browser spazzed out and tossed it away. I hate you, Vista.
Yes, I've been neglecting LJ. Sorry folks. I have been feeling unsucessful in my restricting and I did'nt have the nerve to show my face here.
Anyway...Yeah. I had my (UK) size 6 trousers on yesterday. They looked rubbish but they virtually fit. I ( Read more... ) -
Back on track
The last week has been really difficult. I've been socialising and eating/dringking in front of people and feeling like I've given up control. But I'm not too worried, it's just a small setback and I'm looking forward to getting back into my restricting routine. It's not so much the weight I care about it's the restricting that does it for me. Well ( Read more... ) -
Is this even working?
cereal -150
apple, grapes, lo cal hot choc - 200
steamed veg and LF soft cheese spread - 250
=600
Grapes, you are my downfall T_T.
Didn't go into work today because my throat hurts and I generally feel a bit crap. I feel like I've pulled a muscle in my throat, very odd.
I cannot stand to hear/read/speak about eating disorders around other people. When I ( Read more... ) -
Not quite as manic as I sound.
Busy busy busy. I can hardly comprehend how I'm able to write this entry! I walked about four miles to get a spa pricelist for my mother, and she's rewarding me by booking me a massage. Result. I've got a ton of work to do for the museum tomorrow and I'm (still) so tired. But I'll pull something out of my ass. They let me take local government ( Read more... ) -
I never feel I'm doing well enough.
Cereal - 150 ( Read more... ) -
confession and a new muse
I fucked up for the first time in three weeks yesterday. I went out and got drunk. I had special K, a banana and a shitload of drinks. I was on the eliptical at 5am this morning. And I've been lifting my girly 1kg weights. Oh well, moving on, moving on....
I went to the museum I work in to get on with my current project but no one heared me knocking ( Read more... ) -
situation normal
Feeling quite positive today. Not sure why! SceneBoy keeps knocking me back and I'm procrastinating like a motherfucker over work ( Read more... )