I am with this great guy who treats me the way I have always wanted to be treated. When I am with him nothing else matters. But now I am pushing him away and I dont know why. Its something I cant control either. I guess that subconsiously I think that I am saving him from a big mistake....me. I am a mess, and I know this. I have tried to get my ( Read more... )

I have been debating for a long time to write anything in here about recent events. I dont want to go through here and just bitch about everything like I always do ( Read more... )

In 10 mins I turn 19 ( Read more... )

Getting ready to go to work for the moment when i just realized that I have a few things due in my first class tomorrow morning. Its started, just not typed as usual. And today my advisor told me that if I really think that I will graduate in 3 years while also working then she supports me completely and hopes the best but also wants me to get real ( Read more... )

When you expect the worse at all times, though you seem like a negative person, you are never disappointed. Infact you will have some nice surprises at times.

Sitting here tonight has been harder then any other night before. I can't help but wonder what could have been and, of course, it is driving me insane. (For those of you reading this and have no clue what I am talking about, I was supposed to be getting married tomorrow.) I had my closest friends over tonight, those who could make it. It was great ( Read more... )

It is obvious that I have not updated in a long time. For the pastt few months I have tried to put everything I have into working as much as possible. But here lately I have had a lot going through my mind and someone once told me it is best to write your thoughts down inorder to understand everything and maybe even solving a few things. Without ( Read more... )

Finally got the reality check that was long over due. The wedding is off, not getting married. And I suppose that from the very beginning I wouldnt really go through with it. But spending most of my time in West Memphis made me too dependent on him as a friend, and now I am finding myself lucky with the few I still have, even though I can never ( Read more... )

DEVENA_HEIN

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Dizzy

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Elegant

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Well as some may know I am getting married on July 8th,2005. I really am excited about it all. I will be living in West Memphis for only a year, going to school through Marked Tree, and then moving back here to Jonesboro to finish off college. Money is really tight these days too. Unfortunately, all of my money is going to cheap christmas gifts for ( Read more... )