I  wish I could stop these thoughts. 
but it's really really hard. 
I wish I could change so many things.
but then who would I be now?
I don't even know if I like who I am now.
so does it really even matter?
I would like to go back in time.
a certain time.
and say good bye.

Lately I've been feeling like a new person.
I feel more confident than ever.
I don't know.
I like it.

tell me,
when will this get better?

I need to stop.. a lot of things.
why is it so hard?

I keep thinking about this one place and this one time. It was amazing and a great experience. I remember the smells and the music, the way I felt when I first walked in. The way everything looked and how everyone was happy. I mean how could you not be happy? However, I'm probably never going to go back, and it sucks. If I do, it won't be the same ( Read more... )

I wish I could say everything.
It kills me that I can't.

I figured out what I'm going to do with myself.
we get to choose our future, right?

I've been thinking lately,
I hate math.
I hate science.
WHY THE HELL AM I GOING TO MAJOR AND MINOR IN THEM?

I really really wish I could just do what I'm passionate about.
ya know, the one thing that drives me and makes me happy.
I really don't want to teach.
idk.
If I could just be a professional photographer and make a living off of it I would be ( Read more... )

Today was a good day.
I got my acceptance letter to Central.
woot.
for a little bit I had second thoughts about it,
but then someone let me know that it's going to be okay.
it's not uncommon to feel nervous.
so I feel better about it.
I want to hang out with a lot of people this summer.
I talked to my sister today for an hour.
It was good, I really miss her ( Read more... )

sooo yesterday was a bad day ( Read more... )