I feel like I'm 17 all over again....everything is so messed....I skipped class to get drunk with Hailey. I then proceeded to listen to the ultimate emotional battle between her and her bf over the phone while I dried her eyes and lent my shoulder.  Monday night I ended up getting too stoned at Cory's so I came home at 4 am and missed all my ( Read more... )

Dear Diary,

I think I may have just found him.<3

Today I woke up in Chris's arms and knew that finally I was over Chuck. At last. Three months of crying myself to sleep over. You know....I think there's a chance things might work out with us. He has the most beautiful blue eyes that I have ever seen and we laugh at all the same things. His family isn't fucked. He's so very romantic...he even ( Read more... )

I think the person that hurt me the most in such a short time was Andrew. Thanks to him I failed my finals...and crushed my dreams for Journalism next year. I hate him for this and I waited...I waited when I knew there was probably someone else

2 days smoke free. So many men but all they ever want is sexsexsexsexsex. Matt is the first one that hasn't thrown a temper tauntrum when I've refused to kiss n' fuck. I am waiting for Andrew still and it's breaking my fucking heart because it's like he doesn't give a fuck. My parents love him because he's in engineering. He's not exactly totally ( Read more... )

So this is Christmas huh?
I've been through a lot lately...especially the last two days and I suppose my only advice I have for girls my age is to never accept a drink from a guy when you're backstage. With that my faith in men shattered. I'm done. That's all

I'm in love with him, I can't help it, and I can't seem to move on either. I don't know even why after so little time, but everything inside of me just screamed, "don't let this one go"...and I fucked it up.I wanted what I thought was best for him when I thought I was pregnant. I would have rather bore all the pain alone  and had my life fuckedover ( Read more... )

Empty Apartment-Yellowcard ( Read more... )

I'm working on my scarification...it's a heart...it's on my sleeve..I think it suits me. I deadicated this scar to Andrew. The ones left from Chuck are angry slices and suicide attempts this one is a heart...I like to watch it bleed. I'd take a picture if I had a camera. It is a reminder to me to never let my heart go again...never to trust...never ( Read more... )

Last entry for awhile (one month) I may have gotten grounded but it was worth it to talk to Andrew.
I'm scared to leave my beautiful technological world behind *takes a deep breath and plunges into the real world*
See you guys in a month
Ali