I was upset all at once.

I lost control of my right leg as it shook erratically.

I also lost my appetite after not eating since yesterday.

I still ate to seem as if nobody had shaken me.

And now I feel so sad.

I worry that I do not spend enough time with my grandmothers. I know that I do not spend enough time with them. I hardly call. I should change but I discourage myself. I ask myself if they would think that I am strange for changing. I ask myself if they would even want for me to call. I am so stupid and they are old.

So.

1. Some ass fuck slit one of my tires last week; it happened in our parking lot.
2. I got fired for telling my manager that she "should really stop being so frickin rude to me".
3. I got a parking ticket and got even more pissed off.
4. I found a fortune in my car that told me "good thing will befall me in the coming months".
5. I got even more pissed off.

I am wittier, I am smarter.

I have more pictures.

I have a lover and a hater.

I could be right when I wonder

"Does who hates on me like me as well"?

This could be wrong.

My hater was my lover from hell,

This could be true.

But still I am loveable

And I am deserving of love.

Still I am gullible

And this is my greatest weakness,

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I drank too much last night. I feel sick when I see liquor commercials on the television. I am not celebrating St. Patrick's day. I am going to relax and drink water and teas. I never want to see liquor again.

I cannot get Bow Wow Wow's Aphrodisiac out of my brain. It has been there for days. I wake up with in my head, and lay down with in my mind. I think I kind of like it, but it also scares me. If you have itunes, limewire, bearshare, urge.. download that track! Suffer with me folks. That's what friends are for, right?

I am going to change my name to Mucus. I have been blowing my nose for days. Sometimes I think I might like it. And of course the rest of the time I despise it. I guess it's better than wheezing. I finally stopped sneezing today. We'll see how that pans out later in the evening. So my fever went down but I started having heart palpitations. I am ( Read more... )

I am edgy. I want to sleep. Brian is sleepy next to me. I want to be in his arms, I want him to be awake with me. I want to look into his eyes and see that he is looking into me. I want to fall asleep together.

Brian and I were talking about people who have gotten decapitated. Actually we only talked about Grace Kelly and we don't even know if she got decapitated. And now I have the song Puttin' On The Ritz stuck in my head. I didn't know that Peter Doyle was The Monster in Young Frankenstein. I heard that he had passed away, I also heard Puttin' On The ( Read more... )

So, I picked out what I wanted for Christmas a few weeks back. Now it waits for me at my Mother's house. It's a sweet laptop. I think I'm in love.....

The Toshiba Satellite M115-S3094


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